You say I live in a world of make believe.

I say sometimes all we have left are dreams.

You say I'm not strong enough.

I fear I'm so tough I'll turn to stone.

You say I'll never be rid of your tyranny.

I know one day I'm going to break free...believe me!
Vivian Hadding

There was a time I was happy,
But not anymore.

All my dreams seem to falter,
I fall through the floor.

Down to the bottom,
A dreadful abyss.

Of darkness and sadness,
There is no relief.

I dreamed of a angel,
His radiant arms

Trying to lift me, and keep me,
And save me from harm.

All the while I was blinded,
I just couldn't breathe.

And the pain and the fears,
And the tears choking me.

I struggled for freedom,
I cried for his hand.

But the harshness about,
Threatened me in the end.

Vivian Hadding

I Have Lived For So Long
by Vivian Hadding

Lived for so long with your lies
That I can't see the truth in your eyes

Lived for so long with your hate
That I can't feel my heart

I've been praying for so long to be saved
To be saved by the one who'll hold my heart
By the one who'll hold my heart with his love
With his love
By the one who'll hold my heart with his love

Lived so long with your fears
That they had become mine.

Lived so long with your pain
That I've bled till I'm dry

I've been praying for so long to be held
To be held by the one who'll touch my soul
By the one who'll touch my soul with his eyes
With his eyes
By the one who'll touch my soul with his eyes

Lived for so long in the shadow of your cold
That I can't feel the warmth in your arms

Lived for so long with a frown upon your face
That I fear I'll never see a smile on any other face

I've been praying for so long to be loved
To be loved by the one who'll come a running
By the one who'll come a running and catch me in his arms
In his arms
By the one who'll come a running and catch me in his arms

Lived for so long in the dungeon of your mind
That I can't hardly find my way back into the light

Lived for so long in the chaos that you crave
That the peace I create just seems to slip away

I've been praying for so long to be freed
To be freed by the love
By the love that lives deep inside of me
Inside of me
By the love that lives deep inside of me

I've been reading The Mastery of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz these last few days in between my hours at the rink, the gym, the parking lot strumming my guitar and of course sketching in the back of my pickup truck. Its a small book and although my children could get through it in a day, I prefer to take my time, to digest it, to integrate it thoroughly into my soul. This book is one of the best gifts I have given myself. I bought it used with someone else's pink highlighting and she received it from someone else for her birthday, as is evident by the inscription on the inside cover. If you do nothing else for yourself on Valentines Day, read this book. It Will change your life for the better, it will remind you of who you really are.