Frail, by Jars of Clay

Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would

A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things

Chorus:
If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seems to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide

Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace

[Chorus]

...frail

songs of the evening...

Disappear, by Jars of Clay

i watch you smile
you steal the show
you take a bow
the curtain falls in front of you
you're magical, on display
i gaze into your eyes and
you turn to look the other way

but i'd really love to know
i'd really love to climb
my way into your heart
and see what i could find
i'd walk into your skin
swim through your veins
see it from your eyes
cause i'd really love to try, yeah

standing still
but in my mind
trying to escape
lookin' for a place to hide
it's not safe, but i'm so near
invading every place you go to disappear

i'd really love to know
i'd really love to climb
my way into your heart
and see what i can find
i'd walk into your skin
swim through your veins
see it from your eyes
i'd really love to try

i'd really love to know
i really want to climb into your soul
walk into your skin
swim through your veins
see it from your eyes
i'd really love to try
i'd really love to try

yeah, try

i'd really love to know
i'd really love to climb
my way into your heart
and see what i can find
i'd walk into your skin
swim through your veins
see it from your eyes

i'd really love to try
i'd really love to climb my way into your heart
and see what i could find
i'd walk into your skin
swim through your veins
see it from your eyes
i'd really love to try
i'd really love to try
yeah, yeah

yeah, i want to get inside the you you're hiding from
(yeah)
yeah, i want to get inside the you you're hiding from
(yeah)
i want to get inside the you that you are hiding from
(yeah)

March 27, 2009 Quote of the Day "You may never know what results come from your action. But if you do nothing, there will be no result." – Mahatma Gandhi

song of the evening...

Before Tomorrow Comes, by Alter Bridge

I couldn't sleep I had to listen
To a conscience knowing so well
That nothing comes from indifference
I look inside of myself

Will I find some kind of conviction?
Will I bid the hero farewell?
Will I be defined by things that could have been?
I guess time will only tellI guess time will only tell

[Chorus:]
So don't let it be
Before tomorrow comes
Before you turn away
Take the hand in need
Before tomorrow comes
You could change everything

I curse my worth and every comfort
That blinded me for way too long
Damn it all I'll make a difference from now on
Cause I'm wide awake to it all
Cause I'm wide awake to it all

[Chorus]
Does anyone care it ain't right what we're doing?
Does anyone care it ain't right where we're going?
Does anyone dare justify how we're living?
Does anyone here care at all?

[Chorus]
We could be so much more than we are
We could be so much more than we are
We could be so much more than we are
Oh this much I know

Quote of the Day
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."– Eleanor Roosevelt

An idea I started yesterday before I got called into work. I hope to have the sketch finished today and hopefully add some color.

song of the day...

One Day Remains, by Alter Bridge

As your will is bent and broken, every vision has been cast into the wind
As your courage crashes down before your eyes
Don't lay down and die'

Cause I see in you
More than you'll ever know
And I ask you, "Why
You question the strength inside?"
And you need to know
How it feels to be alive

When every wound has been re-opened
And in this world of give and take, you must have faith
And the distance to your dreams stretch beyond reach
Don't lay down and die
No

Cause I see in you
More than you'll ever know
And I ask you, "Would
You question the strength inside?"
And you need to know
How it feels to be alive...

How it feels
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels
How it feels to be alive...

Cause I see in you
More than you'll ever know
And I ask you, "Would
You question the strength inside?"
And you need to know
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels to be alive...

song of the day...
Crashed by Daughtry

Well I was moving at the speed of sound.
Head-spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know that I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I've been, well it's all a blur.
What I was looking for, I'm not sure.
Too late and didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.

Somehow, I couldn't stop myself.
I just wanted to know how it felt.
Too strong, I couldn't hold on.
Yeah, yeah.
Now I'm just tryin' to make some sense
Out of how and why this happened.
Where we're heading, there's just no knowing.
Yeah, yeah.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.

From your face, your eyes
Are burning to me.
You saved me, you gave me
Just what I need.
Oh, just what I need.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.

And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,

"Wasted Years" by Cold

There's a game life plays
makes you think you're everything they ever said you were
Like to take some time
Clear away everything I planned

[Chorus]
Was it life I betrayed
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much
could I disappear
and there's nothing that's left but wasted years

There's nothing left but wasted years

If I could change my life
Be a simple kind of man try to do the best I can
if I could see the signs
I'd derail every path I could
now I'm about to die
won't you clear away from me give me strength to fly away

[Chorus] There's nothing left but wasted years [x3]

[Chorus x3]

Song of the day...

Running Blind by Godsmack

Can't find the answers
I've been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning

Promises have been turned to lies
Can't even be honest inside
Now I'm running backward
Watching my life wave me goodbye

I'm running blind
I'm running blind
Somebody help me see
I'm running blind

Searching for nothing
Wondering if I'll change
I'm trying everything
But everything still stays the same

I thought if I showed you I could fly
Wouldn't need anyone by my side
Now I'm crawling backward
With broken wings I know I'll die

I'm running blind
Running blind
Somebody help me see I'm running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind, ooh

(Acoustic solo)
I can't find the answers
I've been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning

I'm running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind

Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
I'm running blind...

song of the evening...

Foolish Games by Jewel

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...

[Chorus]
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.
You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.
I hid my soiled hands behind my back.
Somewhere along the line, I must've gone
Off track with you.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.

[Chorus]
You took your coat off,
Stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.

Dreams rise to the surface in the strangest ways while doodling

Quote of the Day
"Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence."– Helen Keller

Note to self...Get some visual references!

Quote of the Day

"If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we are not really living. Growth demands a temporary surrender of security."
– Gail Sheehy

Lovers Dream

There's a space so far between us.
I feel the need for grace.

I wonder at the dream the way you seek me.
Waiting, watching, seldom speaking.

We are as waves helplessly crashing upon the cliffs.
Emotions erupting, dangerously close to touching.

Will it be enough the lines that separate us?
Or, will those ties be the force that binds us?

Your eyes they ever haunt me.
They pull me under into the depths of your soul.

I'm drowning in a pool of passion so cold it burns me.
Can you feel my love?

I touch my heart and pray you'll find me.
I close my eyes and wish you'd hold me.

What happens when we awaken?
Soaked and tattered seals without our skin.

That's why I run, because I fear you.
Yet, you are the star that always guides me.

You are my strength, my breath, my hope.
And, I need you.

Vivian Hadding

Defeat is a matter of attitude, yet there are moments in our days when no matter how strong you think you can be, you crumble. When so much is riding upon you, when so many are depending on you, when you have given so much of your soul already, sometimes its hard to continue. Yes, you fill yourself up with positive affirmations, follow through with positive action, still there are times that no matter what you do you can't seem to shake the feelings that you are drowning.

Sometimes we feel so alone, so lost we begin to doubt everything about ourselves, our quest, our worth, our talents. We stifle the tears and harden our hearts till the look on a loved one reminds us that we are not superhuman after all, but poor, miserable beings struggling to find a way back to our Divineness. I think that's why I love nature so much. The Divine is so apparent in all of nature's simplicity. It so healing, so peaceful, so empowering, she inspires. Unlike humans, she is not difficult, let alone impossible to figure out.

Have you ever notice how badly we hurt each other? I seem to do this on so many levels without even trying. Most times it seems that the more I try to reach out the harder it is for me, the more I actually mess up. God, will I ever get it right?

Time to be tough again. Time to break out the old armor and steel my heart come what may.